The dream this morning has me out in the American South West. The dream begins in an office in big Hollywood movie production lot. I am a producer of films. I am at my desk looking through photos and reports of locations for my next motion picture, a western. My very young female assistant walks in she is a very attractive and has dark hair. She is part Native American. She sees what I am doing and offers a suggestion. She tells me about the place where she grew up as a girl. The place is Monument Valley, it is a region of the Colorado Plateau characterized by sandstone buttes, and It is located on the Arizona-Utah state line near the Four Corners area. Director John Ford used Monument Valley in many of his films and it was a favourite location of his. The place has come to epitomize what movie goers have envisioned the Old American West to look like. I have an ah-ha moment and I wake up.
Before I fell asleep last night I was reading Carl Jung's classic work: Man and his Symbols. I was reading the section titled: The anima: the woman within. The anima is defined as the personification of all feminine psychological tendencies in a man's psyche. The feminine aspect of my unconscious self could be revealing itself as the young female assistant in this dream. There is a tension within every man between him and his mother. The mother being the foremost feminine influence in his life. Positive and negative influences are manifested in deep profound psychological ways, as a consequence, a man's conscious relationship with a wife can have difficulties and dramas. A bearable solution can be found only if the anima is acknowledged as an inner power. The secret aim of the unconscious is to develop and bring into maturity more of the unconscious and integrate it into the conscious real life personality.
It seems, to me, that there is an inner striving between my anima unconscious and my outwardly male self. They want to come to terms with each other. My inner female, symbolically my young female assistant, is saying, "Here look at this! This is where you should go. This location best suits where you need to be to do what you want to do."
Presently, I am trying two different approaches to get my fiancée, Hakima, here with me in the U.S. and both are stalled at the moment. Is the dream telling me to follow Hakima's approach? Or should I simply be looking to gain more momentum by doing things in a more feminine way? I don't know. It sure opens up a lot of interesting questions to how I am operating. Is the unconscious universe trying to push me into doing things differently? Most of my attempts to find a solution to getting my girl here with me have led to roadblocks. Am I unconsciously sabotaging myself or am I going about this in all the wrong way. I am trying my best to follow the rules.
There are some other interesting symbols to consider. The fact I am looking for a desert location to shoot my picture is one. The symbol of American West (real and imagined) exerts a powerful influence on the collective psyche of our nation and people. It was a territory of the unexpected. It was once symbolic of our wild and untamed natures. Being American or becoming American was once synonymous with rugged individualism. Jung's work also speaks about the process of individuation. Individuation is what occurs when one has thought long enough and hard enough about the anima and animus, and has come to a reconciliation with their influences, and can evolve to the next step so to speak. I'm not sure if I am anywhere near this stage of psychic development yet. It is difficult to sort out where any one aspects begins or ends.
So am I living in my truth? What the hell does that mean anyway? I acknowledge the unconscious and what it is doing to me and with me. I endeavour to understand what makes it tick and I am always looking for ways to use it to my advantage. I am always being honest with my conscious self. I know my strengths and weaknesses. So the universe wants me to be happy. Really? The gurus say I am manifesting my reality. How I think, whether positive or negative, will create it's like effect in turn. Well, from what I have seen lately the universe is being awful stingy with the blessings and too quick to dish out the crap. I guess I need to pop a happy pill and put on my rose coloured glasses.
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