A Fool's Journey

The dream this morning seems to have some very interesting symbolism. I am driving an old army vehicle that soldiers used to call a "deuce and a half" which is a 2 1/2 ton truck. I am driving past the old farm house on the street that I grew up on. It is winter and the snow is deep and the road is icy. It is late in the day and it is quickly getting dark out. I have the blackout lights on. These are lights that let out a tiny amount of light and are what soldiers are suppose to use in a combat situation. My experience with them, when I served in the army in the 1980's, was that they are utterly useless. You end up wishing you had some night vision goggles instead.

I come to a steep upward grade hill and on my left I see a young woman dressed in heavy winter clothes trudging up the hill alongside the road. I slam on the brakes and slide narrowly missing her. I had not seen her in the dark and I came within a foot of running her over. I take a deep breath and continue on with my drive. I do not know where I am going but it seems I am eager to get there. I come to an end to the road. The road in the waking life ends at an intersection, but in the dream it comes to a big house and a dead end. I pause to look at my map and see there is another road beyond this house. Now if I could just figure out how to reach it and I can continue on with my journey. The house has a steep hill behind it and is surrounded by trees. So driving around it to get to that road just doesn't seem to be an option.

What to do? Well, I get out and remove the piano from in back of the truck. A piano? Ha, ha! What in the hell is that doing there? I have superman like strength! Well, cool! What other superpowers do I have? Well, I use my mind to shrink the truck to the size of a TV and I carry it around the right side of the house and down some very long and steep steps to the road below. I set the truck down it returns to normal size and I go back up top for the piano.


Now I don't understand it but I am unable to shrink the piano like I did the truck. "Okay!" I say to myself, I will just carry the damn thing on my back down those stairs. Well, my powers are fading that piano was damn heavy! Ha, ha!! I am exhausted by the time I reach the base of the hill at street level. My steps get slower and the piano gets heavier with each step. I look around and I see it is now Summer! I feel the warmth of the sun on my face. I see green everywhere. There is a picket fence with a swinging gate. A woman is there to hold open the gate. She says to me, "Here, let me get that." as she opens the gate. The woman is blond with her hair tied back. She is wearing a green dress that looks like something Scarlett O'Hara wore in "Gone with the Wind". I am in awe as I set the piano down to speak with her. This is when I wake up.

What do the symbols in this dream say? I am on a fool's journey. I don't know where I am going all I know is I just want to get there. The fact I start this dream driving on the street I grew up on is symbolic of my life path as I journey through this life from a child to a grown man. Life is stark cold harsh drudgery or at least indifferent to where I want to get to. The deuce and a half army truck represents the vehicle I chose to drive in this life. I have served in the military for almost all of my adult life. That narrow miss of the woman in the road must be symbolic of the close calls I must have had at hurting the women in my life. Maybe I have injured a few, but I don't think, I ran any of them over. Thank God!

The end of the road, it seems, is not the end of the journey. Death is not the end? It seems not. My vehicle just gets smaller. I will be carrying a soul instead of a body. The map might represent a life review. The piano is my life. Did I play it well? There is no shrinking that baby. My karma is fixed. I am walking into the sun shine on a new road to a new journey. I have set my burdens down and an angel (the lady in green) is there to greet me and send me on my way. A nod to reincarnation, perhaps? A journey into heaven, or enlightenment? It could be.

I am, again, amazed at what I have decoded from this dream while analysing the symbols. I never quite know what to expect when I do these interpretations. It all comes to me very unexpected as I go through the steps. My unconscious has so much to reveal if I make the effort to get to know it and follow my intuition. I will never get the whole picture but the bits and pieces I can glean give me a wealth of useful insights into my psyche. Know thy self is the old adage. Dream analysis ought to be the first tool to reach for in the know-thy-self tool box kit. I can say it is a best tool I ever used!!