The dream this morning had me climbing Mount Everest. It seems this expedition is to celebrate my impending wedding to my sweetheart, Haki. The whole thing has been planned by my best man, an old friend, whom I have not seen in years.
The trip involves a long drive with trucks and Range Rovers into the Himalayas as far as the road will go. Then it takes weeks of hiking just to get to the base of Everest. The lower third of Everest is a steep hike and the upper two-thirds of Everest is some extremely rough and serious rock climbing. My friend, his wife and my Haki are well ahead of me and are in great shape and high spirits. Myself, I am way behind and not doing to well. It takes considerable effort to breathe and I am fading fast from the physical exertion.
In my minds eye I see everyone in the team has reached the summit and are thrilled to be there. However, I am some distance below them, out of sight and I am crawling, and clawing my way up. I am not going to make it, and it looks like I am dying. I'm exhausted and in poor health. I wake up.
A lot of people have died and their bodies have never been found climbing Everest. It looks like in this dream I have become another climber to add in that statistic. It really annoys me that my friends got to the top without me and are having such a grand time and I'm am dying down below.
I suppose this dream might be full of metaphors about how I feel about my general outlook on life and my current poor health. Today, I am at the university again. I slept overnight in a guest room here. I always have difficulty trying to sleep in a new or different place. I like familairity of my own bed at home. Although it is much quiter here. The traffic noises in Gaylord disturb my rest at home.
One thing that stands out is I must make an effort at eating better and get into shape or life is going to leave me behind. I need to work at making my quality of life better and get more healthy. Life is hard to enjoy if your health suffers. I could use a personal trainer and a life coach.
When I was younger and healthier I yearned to go on adventures like mountain climbing. Today, I still do, but damned if my body will let me! It sucks getting old and seeing friends not trying to help me is most irritating.
If I was rich I would hire a chef and a personal trainer. I would go off on adentures in good health on my own or hire good people to accompany me. I'm not into playing King-of-the-Hill with fair weather so called friends. I want to be happy to be with the people I love and care about and have them be the same toward me.
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