"Still Loving You!"

The dream this morning is music. I see myself with a guitar and I am in a room set aside in a future home just for the playing of music. I am standing behind a microphone, I am holding a guitar, and to my right just a few feet a away is a young male teen he is wearing a suit and tie. He looks to be maybe 12 or 13 years old. He is my son. I say to him, " You must learn the songs of my youth. It is my duty to teach you the music of my generation. These songs must not be forgotten."

So I start singing and playing to him a hit ballad by the Scorpions,

"Still Loving You".

Time, it needs time
To win back your love again
I will be there, I will be there
Love, only love
Can bring back your love someday
I will be there, I will be there

I'll fight, babe, I'll fight
To win back your love again
I will be there, I will be there
Love, only love
Can break down the wall someday
I will be there, I will be there

If we'd go again
All the way from the start
I would try to change
The things that killed our love
Your pride has built a wall, so strong

That I can't get through
Is there really no chance
To start once again
I'm loving you

Try, baby try
To trust in my love again
I will be there, I will be there
Love, our love
Just shouldn't be thrown away
I will be there, I will be there

If we'd go again
All the way from the start
I would try to change
The things that killed our love
Your pride has built a wall, so strong
That I can't get through
Is there really no chance
To start once again

If we'd go again
All the way from the start
I would try to change
The things that killed our love
Yes, I've hurt your pride, and I know
What you've been through
You should give me a chance
This can't be the end
I'm still loving you
I'm still loving you, I need your love
I'm still loving you

I continue on playing a medley of classic rock tunes, but there is something about this one Scorpions song that haunts me. It will forever speak to my soul and be the banner of my youth. The wife is pregnant with our first child. I am 56 years old. Never thought I would have a child. I love music. I wish I had continued to learn guitar when I was teenager.

My life went in an entirely different direction after high school and I had a 26 year career as a cook in the military. I put away foolish dreams of becoming a guitar hero and became a soldier. It doesn't get much more opposite than that.

Now, that I have impending fatherhood on my plate, I think my dream self is wanting me to re-examine old dreams and desires. Perhaps I should try to learn guitar once again? The old music must not get forever lost. What gave me joy must be shared with my progeny at least.

Current modern music is mostly crap. God, I sure hope I am around to teach my kids and I hope to singing, "Still Loving You!" to a son or daughter. We must preserve our musical heritage and pass it on.